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Day 30

Day 30 has arrived. It has been an enjoyable experience. It didn’t leave me with much time for anything else though. Maybe once a week from here is a good idea. This month has helped me a lot with forming ideas and focussing in on what is true to me. A month ago, I was struggling to write anything. Today I feel more confident and less self-conscious about putting my thoughts into the world. I am also finding it easier to transition my ideas from thoughts into words.

This experience has also been an experiment for me on the use of Facebook. I have previously had a moral block on my use of it. I don’t like the way that social media is being used, therefore I have been limiting my use of it. I had to get over myself. I believe in the project that I am engaged in so that means that I have to shout it from the mountain tops. Each person chooses to use social media in their own personal way. I had to just start posting to find mine. In reality, posting a lot on social media means that you are exposing your true self. Maybe that’s what I was afraid of.

Maybe it is the generation that I come from. I first got email when I went to University. I was 20-years-old. I opened my Facebook account when I about 27-years-old. I started using Instagram at the age of 36. I have found myself fighting in between the world that opposes social media and the world that uses social media. On one side of the coin, I am expressing my doubts and concerns about social media use, and on the other, I am using it. Forcing myself to a month of it has made it less of an issue. As long as I’m true to who I am then I should have no worries about posting.

I have enjoyed the journey, enjoyed the early morning starts, and enjoyed reading the comments that people have left. I am no writer but the writing has helped me in many ways. I can see my path a little more clearly now. I look forward to posting more and hopefully engaging in more discussion.

To leave you with the words that I began with 30 days ago. “We know nothing”. This is a mantra that I keep repeating to myself. It’s not that I don’t think I’m intelligent. We are all intelligent in our own way. It’s not that I don’t have confidence in myself. I am more confident now than I have ever been in my life. It’s just that it helps me really listen to a child when I believe that I can learn something from them. That helps me learn, it improves my relationship with that child and it also supports the growth of that child’s confidence. I’m not sure who said it but there is a reason why we have 2 ears and 1 mouth. It’s because we should listen 2 times more than we talk.